Friday, Saturday and Sunday of this week past weekend, I had started going into the Unexpected of the unknown journey about to come my way on Monday morning of the back end of my Chemo treatments. My mind started to shift into the Fear/Scared, anticipation of starting and not wanting to start, resistance, wanting more information and just a bit of anxiety. But as quickly as those emotions started to transpire into me, I quickly grabbed a hold of my Mind-Body-Soul-Spirit and made a strong conscious decision that I was not alone and I was going to lay all of the Unknown over to GOD and lay it at his feet. I know in my heart of all hearts that God has my back/front, side to side and up and down of my whole entire being/body and I was consciously going to turn all of the worry and concern over to him, because I know that his shoulders, arms, legs and complete spiritual being can handle everything that we choose to give to him and the power to handle all of it. I decided to ask him for guidance of Strength, Healing and the complete power of least resistance of being the one to know by body and what it will need through this venture in my life. I bubble wrap my body completely over and over in my mind and have a strong white light of healing moving from my feet up and through my entire body and out of my head and breath nothing but Love in and out of my mouth and nose for my complete meditation of healing and being centered completely in the receiving of healing. I am blessed and I am grateful and as one of my Mentors in my life always says “We are Victors and not Victims “(Joel Osteen) I am soaring like an Eagle and flying really high... I have asked myself before in this experience, "Why Me" and than I have turned it around into the highest question in myself, "Why not me". I have chosen to take the road of looking at the Gifts, Blessing and Gratefulness that this Cancer has given me in my life and that has been my choice through this entire walk that I am walking thus far. "IAM THAT, IAM"...

It is Tuesday morning early the day after Chemo has begun. I am all hooked up on the Chemo with a traveling Pump on my shoulder with me at all times right now. It has to be, for the Chemo that is pumping into me at the present moment is extremely harsh and has to be pumped into the body at such a turtle speed because the body cannot handle it at the normal Ivy drip state. I can honestly say that I feel no different than the other Chemo has made me feel, so at this point there has been no change for me. I feel Strong and I feel the presents of God and my loved ones helping and the power of healing all around me. 

The many of you that do not understand Chemo Therapy Treatments and what it has been and some side effects thus far for me personally, I would like to break it down for you so that you can understand what the treatment are for most patients, how it works and what the process and medicines general are.

Chemo Therapy Treatment:
1st 3 Months 
= Paclitaxel (U.S. name: Abraxane) (every Monday morning/once a week for 12 months)
= Neupogen (every Tuesday morning/once a week 12 months) Booster shot following Chemo treatment that must be given within a 36-48 hour period of treatment to make the bones produce white blood cell counts and a amount that is 1,000 times greater than the normal production. 6,000 produced daily for about 6 days compared to the rate of 600 daily to the normal body. This will make your bones of course ache and muscles a bit and the shot is given in the stomach.
= Blood work (weekly & month draw) every Friday through the whole treatment as they are watching closely to your white blood counts, red blood counts, immune system and some other important numbers. Mine have been strong completely through this whole 3 months. Huge mile stone.
2nd 3 Months
= FEC Treatment / Fluorouracil (U.S. name Adrucil), Epirubicin (U.S. name: Ellence) this is the one taken home with you for 2 days on the pump which is red and has been given the nick name from nurses I was told years ago "The red demon", we have decided to rename the medicine "RED VELET", Cyclophosphamide (US. name: Cytoxan)  
(Monday morning/every 3 weeks for the above Treatment)
= Wednesday morning Pump removal at office
= Neulasta (Thursday/every 3 weeks following Chemo treatment) Booster shot following Chemo treatment that must be given within a 24-48 hour period of treatment to make the bones produce white blood cell counts and a amount that is 1,000 times greater than the normal production. 6,000 produced daily for about 22 days compared to the rate of 600 daily to the normal body. This will make your bones of course ache and muscles a bit and the shot is given in the stomach.
= Blood work / weekly & monthly draw (every Friday through the whole treatment as they are watching closely to your white blood counts, red blood counts, immune system and some other important numbers.
(Overall Treatment is for 3 months X 4 Treatment doses)

*A Total of 6 months of treatment with the 2 different treatments involved*

I give each day my best and accept the best from each day.

As much as I enjoy instant gratification, I know that sometimes it takes time to achieve the desired result. For instance, I learned to crawl before I walked, to walk before I ran. Therefore, I don't fight time; I recognize that it's on my side. All that needs to happen can happen quickly; it may also take time for the perfect result to appear. So I cooperate with God as the fulfillment of the perfect plan unfolds.

I am a part of the creative process that is taking place. Thinking and working in an atmosphere of expecting the best and giving it time to develop, I am my most Creative, my most Effective. I enjoy the journey toward my goals as much as reaching them. Life is unfolding daily, and I have the time to give each day my best and accept the best from it.

"The earth produces of itself, first the stalk, then the head, then the full grain in the head." - Mark 4:28

October 1, 2008
Finally we have power restored back here in Houston after hurricane storm Ike moved through the day after my 40th Birthday September 12th. My house was down for exactly 2 weeks without power. My entire family and house is completely safe and sound and I am blessed. We had only inconveinces of no city power for 2 full weeks, But my husband Brad the boy scout he is, thank God, had us up and running on a generator for the full two weeks and made sure I always had a full tank of gas to run the whole household conservatively. We had no damage to our house and a trailor to Thank for that, it took the brunt of a tree coming down that almost went through our bedroom and it saved that from happening. I am Grateful...

I am currently done with the 1st 12 weeks of Chemo, Thank you God and on my 1 full week break before the next 3 months begin of the 4 sessions of Chemo that are given 3 weeks apart. Monday the 6th of October I will begin what I call the back end of my journey of treatment.